Canadaloverforever

It's been a week since Francis told Matthew to leave and he is regretting every moment of it. There is no one around to cook him pancakes or to make out with. He misses coming home from work and seeing Matthew sitting on the couch with that stupid little bear. He misses Matthew... Francis decides to go out for a drink to get his mind off of Matthew. Once he arrives at the bar he orders a glass of red wine and drinks it slowly while watching everybody who is dancing. Looking closely, he sees a pair of white ears out on the dance floor. He swears they look like Kumo's ears, Matthew's bear. He goes out to the dance floor and just as he suspect

My life is a never ending hole and I don't even know how to get out of it I've never breathed so much as one breath While standing infront of my mother Because my mother doesn't know what love is My mother will grab my wrist Drag me all the way upstairs yelling: YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT I can't remember the last time I heard those magical three words that can make someone smile for years I can't remember ever feeling loved Sure I got money for things I wanted to buy And I got spoiled And I always had food And a roof over my head BUT I would trade all that in for three simple words from the women who gave me life I love you

I take a deep breath But that isn't going to help Because I am drowning Drowning in my own fears Pulled down by the suction of society's image Sinking because I'm not skinny enough to float I'm crying But my tears rise up, out of the water Because that's the only thing society wants to see I was the girl that seemed "unbreakable" But I broke I dropped my fake smile And whispered... I just can't take this anymore

Tears swell up in my eyes But I won't let them fall You will not see me break I am strong I am your big sister I am your role model You look up to me I have to be strong For you So I will not let the tears fall And I will swallow my pain Just so maybe you can see that Maybe... The world isn't Only full of pain

As I grab the razor out of my book tears stream down my face Words you've said flash through my mind like an ever flowing river I sit down slowly and raise the blade to my wrist As I tighten my muscles I wonder to myself...why do you love me? I slide the blade down once....why do you care? Blood trickles out.....why are you here? A second slice straight down my arm...would you love me if you knew what I did? Would you love me if you could watch the blood trickle out? Would you love me if you saw my skin puff up? Would you love me if you know that this helped me? Would you love me?

If only you were here I could wrap my arms around you Hold you tight Hoping you smile If only you were here I could hold your hand And squeeze it tight Looking into your eyes I hope to see how much you love me If only you were here I could kiss you With passion If only you were here ... I could love you

I'm tired of staying up late Never getting enough sleep Thinking of everything I have done wrong Not even considering that I actually did something right I think to hard About how much everything hurts Not willing to believe that life can change I'm tired of staying up late Because the night Makes your mind The scary thing it is

I can't do this anymore Nothing in my life is working Every breath I take Is a single mistake Every move I make Is a breaking bone In someone else's body Every heartbeat I have Is a broken relationship Every word I speak Is another life taken I just can't take this anymore What's the point? You walk the earth But you step in between the cracks You sing to the world But you are always off pitch You try to help someone But your words just fly over their head So someone tell me Please What's the point? Because I just can't handle this anymore

Take my soul I never needed it Take my heart It only causes me pain Take my family They would be happier Take my friends Keep them safe Take the noise that I create Make a song of sorrow Take the body I use I wrecked it Take my final breath For I am to weak to take it myself

Make me PART OF YOUR WORLD I'll IMAGINE DRAGONS SCARY MONSTERS AND NICE SPRITES BRING ME TO LIFE Make THE IMPOSSIBLE become my JOURNEY My REFLECTION is no longer INVISIBLE to the MAN IN THE MIRROR 'MY SONG' 'GIVES YOU HELL' QUEEN of a SIMPLE PLAN and KING OF ANYTHING Why must YOU LIE? COME LITTLE CHILDREN and FAITHFULLY bow To the rulers of LOVE AND THEFT WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE The parade of GUNS AND HORSES Where every kid hugs their MAMA in fear THE POINT OF NO RETURN has come Children are WIDE AWAKE but wishing it was all JUST A DREAM A CIVIL WAR of GUNS AND ROSES PARADISE CITY, WHERE THE STREETS HAVE NO NAMES THE POLICE don't care if